Sometimes, you meet a person– and a minute later you forget their name… and other times, you meet someone and they leaving a lasting impression on your soul.
I know it sounds very Kumari to say that— oh I went to India and found a guru whom I will follow anywhere he goes… but really. After taking one class with Surinder I felt like a stronger, more precise yogi, but I also felt like I had a clearer understanding for what yoga means. He will push your practice if he sees slight improvements you can make. He has a very hands on, but clever way to adjust postures, and he will guide you into positions you never thought you could do… Not to mention the fact that he has a very warm and nurturing spirit that seemed nourish my heart.
I guess growing up, my parents were always providers. I always got what I physically needed, but emotionally, I’m not sure if it’s an Asian thing– but they were emotionally aloof. Not the kind of parents that would pat you on the back if you did a good job, or encourage you to chase dreams. It was a very— this is what we think you should do. If you don’t do it, you’re a disappointment. If you do accomplish what we’ve asked of you– it’s because it is expected and nothing more. And affection– absolutely not.
So– to take a YTTC course with Surinder– I can’t deny that he made me feel… supported viagra generika schweiz rezeptfrei. I don’t want to say… like I was worth something… or special… or loved. Because I should just feel that anyway… but to actually feel that for the first time– that acceptance from a complete stranger— like I mattered, like somebody believed in me… you never want to let that go.
So naturally, since I’ve always wanted to take a YTTC– I figured what better place to take it than in India and with Surinder.
Below are a few images during my journey. I met several incredible people. Some I got to know better than others. I can definitely say living and seeing the same 15 people all day every day for 30 days…. can be a learning experience. I learned a lot about myself and how I handle situations.
When being taught certain ideologies and Sutras– you start to micro analyze who we are and our behaviors. I became hyper aware of how I process information, how I react to said situations, and I can be the first to say that there were a lot of internal conflicts arose. “Am I good person?” ” Am I selfish?” “I’m a terrible person!” “I wish I wouldn’t react this way… ” etc..
But I’ve learned– it’s all a learning and growing experience…. and much of what I learned was to more or less accept myself and my perceived faults than to constantly judge myself and my shortcomings. But– I will say– its good to take step back and audit and be more aware because nobody is perfect and we are all a work in progress.